You may have noticed that Kim and I didn’t do our usual red carpet and award show coverage for this year’s Grammys. Why? Because even people who win Grammys know that the Grammys are basically irrelevant.
But let’s just put a pin in that for now. Today, we’re going to use the Grammys for our own selfish reasons, and those reasons are OTP-related. This week’s playlist highlights are all by 2013 Grammy nominated or Grammy winning artists. And being a featured artist on Head Over Feels is the REAL prize.
“You saw my pain washed out in the rain
Broken glass, saw the blood run from my veins
But you saw no fault, no cracks in my heart
And you knelt beside my hope torn apart
So lead me back, turn south from that place
And close my eyes to my recent disgrace
‘Cause you know my call
And we’ll share my all
And our children come and they will hear me roar.”
If this 50th anniversary business doesn’t give us some kind of update on TenToo/Rose and their adorable babies, I QUIT. Seriously, I am out. You can keep your bow ties and your sonics and your crippling heartbreak. I’ll have escaped and started a fandom for, like, that new Ron Weasley show from the My Name is Earl guy or something.
“And I love her so
I wouldn’t trade her for gold
I’m walking on moon beams
I was born with a silver spoon
And I’m gonna be me
I’m gonna be free
I’m walking on moon beams
And staring out to sea.”
We all have those friends, right? The ones who prefer their relationships to be dramatic and tragic 24/7? I’ve never understood that. If you don’t have fun together, why is it even worth it?
When Rose tells Nine that life is “better with two,” she’s right. But it’s gotta be the RIGHT two. If Doctor Who were about two miserable people who bicker all the time and then retreat to their separate rooms to write emo-y LiveJournal posts, I don’t think this fandom would even exist.
“Gold” is about the people in this world who, when you’re with them, make you the very best version of yourself. You can practically see the weight fall off of the Doctor’s shoulders as Series 1 progresses. And he never forgets it. He may not have been able to say those three little words on Bad Wolf Bay, but he comes close. “You made me better,” he says to her. And isn’t that basically the same thing?
Music business, I am on to you. You’re all secret Doctor Who fans. Just admit it. Let your Whovian freak flag fly.
A few of you are doing a particularly shoddy job of keeping your fandom membership under wraps. Why else would your songs show up six, seven, EIGHT times on our Rose/Doctor playlist?
This week’s post is about the most well-represented artists on our soundtrack to the universe’s greatest OTP. Whether you know it or not, you’ve been writing music that perfectly scores our Rose and Doctor.
Also, Coldplay remains awesome. David agrees. Deal with it.
“You woke up screaming aloud
A prayer from your secret god
You feed off our fears
And hold back your tears, oh
Give us a tantrum
And a know-it-all grin
Just when we need one
When the evening’s thin
Oh you’re a beautiful
A beautiful fucked up man
You’re setting up your
Razor wire shrine.”
I’ve had to cross reference this song in my mind, as it has always been, until now, strictly a Fox Mulder anthem.
Look at those lyrics. That’s 100% the FBI’s Most Unwanted. But Fox is going to have to share it with my Doctor. They have a lot in common, after all. Complex and single-minded. Emotions turning on a dime. Obsessed with their own, specific morality. And they both press all my romantic, anti-hero buttons.
On a personal note: where did weird, folky Sarah McLachlan go and why was she replaced with Adult Contemporary Sad Dog Commercial Sarah McLachlan? Remember that time she spent an entire music video naked in a mud pit? I blame the kids. And the ASPCA.
“When you’re dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with your crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No she can’t, ’cause she’s gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.”
When pressed to choose, I will usually pick the “Impossible Planet”/”Satan Pit” two-parter as my favorite modern era Who episode. But maybe I should change my answer, because I keep coming back to “Human Nature”/”The Family of Blood” in these posts.
We’re mostly used to the enigmatic and manic Doctor that Sarah was singing about just a few seconds ago. But, ugh, how these episodes get right into the heart of him like no others do. The Doctor-Doctor won’t tell Rose how he feels about her. He won’t tell anyone else either, and hardly admits it to himself. But John Smith doesn’t know that. He just dreams and writes it down.
This is what’s ACTUALLY written in “The Journal of Impossible Things” and why people who deny that Rose/Ten is a real thing are just plain wrong:
“I find myself wanting to draw a perfect Rose, over and over although I cannot find a Rose anywhere!
The perfect Rose
It’s a perfect rose.
Rose perfect Rose
In my dreams I keep asking a girl where to find one, and she is dressed in the most extraordinarily immodest way.
She will not answer me, and she keeps walking away.
I keep dreaming of a girl.
Girl in my dreams
I remember this girl I have drawn her although I know her well in my dream
I know her well I know.
I know her
She is my-“
Just plain wrong, I tell ya.
Even though I was born in Michigan, I grew up in Nashville, so country music is practically ingrained into my DNA. I LOVE country music, and I get very annoyed when anyone says they hate it. In fact, I am convinced that anyone that says they hate country music has never really given it a chance. Sure there are some TERRIBLE songs (“Red Solo Cup” is the most recent big hit that comes to mind), but that’s true of any genre (“Gangnam Style” anyone?). To me, what sets Country Music apart as a genre is its focus on story telling. Not that a good pop song can’t tell a story (we’ve got hundreds on this playlist that do) but country songs often take it to the next level and can make you feel all sorts of emotions. Naturally, there are many country songs on this playlist that conjure up Doctor Who feelings. So those who claim to HATE country should give these songs a listen and then get back to me.
And if you get back to me and say you still hate country music, I can’t help you. And I also question whether or not you have a soul.
“There’s a new wind blowing like I’ve never known.
I’m breathing deeper than I’ve ever done.
And it sure feels good to finally feel the way I do.
I wanna love somebody, love somebody like you.
And I’m letting go of all my lonely yesterdays.
I’ve forgivin’ myself for the mistakes I’ve made.
Now there’s just one thing, the only thing I wanna do.
I wanna love somebody, love somebody like you…”
This song screams the Ninth Doctor at the end of “End of the World”, which I also covered in my last playlist post. While the Doctor still has many many gruff moments post “End of the World” (which IS only the second episode of the series), I always pinpoint the end of that episode as the moment where The Doctor started to heal and began to open himself up to Rose. He doesn’t completely change all at once, there would be no fun in that. It’s an ongoing process. But in that moment where he and Rose head off to get some chips, The Doctor begins to let go of his past and relax and allows himself to think that there could be something more for him.
“We run on fumes
Your life and mine
Like the sands of time
Slippin’ right on through
And our love’s the only truth
That’s why I run to you.
This world keeps spinning faster
Into a new disaster so I run to you
I run to you baby
And when it all starts coming undone
Baby you’re the only one I run to
I run to you.”
This song is about partnership and finding that one person you can count on above anyone else. If that is not what you think the Doctor and Rose are to each other, then you are watching the show wrong. Fact.
It’s Playlist Post #12 and we are shaking it up! You’ll notice that the title of the post has been changed to “Rose and THE DOCTOR Feels” to reflect our Time Lord’s enduring love for Rose Tyler in all his reincarnations. We’ve talked Nine, Ten, Eleven, and TenToo here, so it’s only right.
And if that’s not exciting enough, today’s blog is by viewer request. We were challenged to do a post entirely on duets! I’ve picked five such songs from our now 554-track playlist for your reading and listening pleasure. And obviously I made sure to get an 80s movie soundtrack staple in there somewhere. The 80s were all about duets.
“I read your words backwards
And as hard as I try
When the room steams up, I turn in and hide
Been dropped more than once
I don’t claim to be new
I only notice the cracks when they break across you.”
NINE. NINE. NINE.
All Nine, all the time.
Nine is all swaggering confidence and steely reserve before he starts to see himself through Rose’s eyes. He doesn’t think things through and his solution to pretty much any conflict is “kill everything.” Let’s go back to “Dalek,” because my beloved Rose can even make the most hateful creature in the galaxy like her. She’s standing between the Doctor and the Dalek, and the Doctor is ready to shoot.
The Doctor: “Rose, get out of the way now!’
Rose: “No! Cause I won’t let you do this.”
The Doctor: “That thing killed hundreds of people.”
Rose Tyler: “It’s not the one pointing the gun at me.”
Rose was always the most compassionate of all the companions and so best one for the post-war Doctor to meet first. When he sees that she is more afraid of him than of the Dalek, he’s horrified. It’s his worst nightmare. So he has to try to change.
I also love this episode, because it’s a Dalek who’s the first to give the Doctor real talk about his love for Rose. Even the Daleks ship it.
“I know, I’m not alone.
I’m not the only one who is broken.
And I know I’ll never let you go.
I could watch the world pass by,
Just as long as it’s you and I, you and I.
I watch you take over.
I’ll give you this offer:
Take my hand and we’ll run away,
Leave behind our past to stay.
Decaying ’til it’s rotten.
A we’ll have long forgotten
The memories that will haunt your heart.
Let’s tear this town apart.”
Earlier this week, I came across my new favorite Nine/Rose head canon in a Tumblr post. I take absolutely no credit for this theory, but I do now 100% subscribe to it. See if you agree:
“When the Ninth Doctor first asked Rose to travel through time with him and refused, the Doctor accepted that and moved on. He traveled through space and time, saving the universe, all lonely for years thinking “I wish Rose could have been here.” Eventually, he goes back to a few seconds after he left Rose and says “By the way, did I mention it also travels in time?”
Rose never knew how long the Doctor waited for her.”
I MEAN, COULD YOU JUST DIE?
Then, a reply adds to it. To paraphrase: this head canon makes sense, because we see photos of the Ninth Doctor at points throughout history, even though he acts, during the events of this first episode, like this face is brand new. So we know that the Doctor in his Ninth regeneration was at the JFK assassination, but it couldn’t have been before “Rose” or after she ran away with him. It had to be during that amorphous amount of time between Rose’s rejection and “Did I mention it also travels in time?”
He CAME BACK. After ALL THAT TIME. Because he knew he needed her. Excuse while I just…
Sit down, my babies – I’m going to tell you a story.
Back in 2008, I was at the Tower Theater in Upper Darby, PA on the night that the Phillies would end up clinching the World Series title. A dangerous day to be out in that city for sure, what with the local sports fans’ penchant for setting cars on fire. But no matter. I was there to see the band I’ve loved since I was but a preteen – live. For the first time. Ever.
Between the opening band and the main act, two couples in their early 20s walked in. These dudes were bros to the max, and completely decked out in Phillies gear. They’d almost certainly pounded a few beers already. As they walked to their seats two rows in front of us, the guys would periodically get into someone’s face and ironically yell, “HANSON, YEAH!” My friend Becky and I were rolling our eyes, sure that these morons were about to ruin the night for everyone. Their girlfriends clearly dragged them here, when they’d much rather be in a bar, covered in wing sauce and watching the game.
And then, something magical happened. The lights dimmed. The band walked out. The music started. Taylor Hanson started singing.
And so did the bros.
For the next two hours, our dudes sang every word of every song from Taylor, Isaac, and Zac Hanson’s flawless, career-spanning set. They twirled their girlfriends and high-fived strangers. They were having the TIME of their LIVES. My heart grew 3 sizes that day.
If you want to see my head explode, go ahead and talk shit on my favorite band. My desert island band. I mean, I will get UGLY.
“Rescue me, Chin Boy, and show me the stars!” — Oswin Oswald, “Asylum of the Daleks”
“But every night, Doctor. When it gets dark, and the stars come out, I’ll look up on her behalf. I’ll look up at the sky. And think of you.” — Wilfred Mott, “Journey’s End”
“It’s all waiting out there, Jackie. And it’s brand new to me. All those planets, creatures and horizons—I haven’t seen them yet. Not with these eyes. And it is gonna be… fantastic.” –The Tenth Doctor, “The Christmas Invasion”
Yeah, yeah, I know that neither one of these quotes were said by our heroine, Rose Tyler. But I DO think that these quotes demonstrate one of the greatest appeals of traveling with The Doctor for the companion…seeing the stars! It’s why Rose ran away with The Doctor in the first place…she knew she wanted to see something MORE than what she had going on in her current life. Heck, it’s why we all watch the show. It’s why I went to Space Camp THREE TIMES (#nerdalert). We ALL want to run away with The Doctor and see all of time and space. It’s why we’re on constant alert for that TARDIS sound.
Needless to say, there are a LOT of songs about the stars out there, and there are quite a few on our epic playlist. Let’s take a look at some, shall we?
“Tell me all about your foreign wars
And all about the photographs that line your drawers
Cause i know a lot about closing doors
But not enough about what opens up yours
Oh my my
Oh my stars
Everything you see is ours
Or it could be if you would try
I wish you would
I wish you might
If everything you’ve said to me has been true
Then all my stars are leading me to you…”
This song SCREAMS Rose and Nine to me (and YES, I realize we talk a LOT about Nine here. Because he is awesome. Perhaps we should just rename these posts Rose and the Doctor feels?). “Oh My Stars” conjures up images of when Rose first started traveling with The Doctor, when he was all prickly and brooding. And (oh so gently) Rose would push him to start to FEEL again. Conversations like this one from “The End of the World” would happen:
The Doctor: You think it’ll last forever. People and cars and concrete. But it won’t. One day it’s all gone. Even the sky. My planet’s gone. It’s dead. It burned like the Earth. It’s just rocks and dust. Before its time.
Rose: What happened?
The Doctor: There was a war and we lost.
Rose: A war with who? What about your people?
The Doctor: I’m a Time Lord. I’m the last of the Time Lords. They’re all gone. I’m the only survivor. I’m left traveling on my own because there’s no one else.
Rose: There’s me.
And thus Rose Tyler, a completely ordinary girl from London, began to melt the heart of a 900 year old Time Lord and heal his battered soul.
Your favorite OTP playlist took a break over the holiday season, but we’re back! Yes, it’s 2013 and we are still writing about these idiots and their stupidly gorgeous faces.
This week’s playlist post is all about time, that heartless bitch. You might think life with a TARDIS would make time inconsequential, but nope. Nope, nope, nope. As hard as he tries to outrun it or stretch it out, the Doctor’s time with his companions always ends. These five songs are all about the the role that time plays in the relationship between the Doctor and Rose Tyler.
*Disclaimer: When I told Kim which songs I picked for this week, she replied, “KILL ME.” So, you know. Fair warning.
Time, where did you go?
Why did you leave me here alone?
Wait, don’t go so fast
I’m missing the moments as they pass
I rewatched the “End of Time” two-parter right before Christmas and was just flattened by a few things I hadn’t noticed about this heartbreaking scene. The Doctor knows that he’s dying, and he’s on a farewell tour to all of his companions. He visits everyone in the “present” of their timelines (Martha and Mickey are engaged, Donna’s getting married), but, of course, he doesn’t have that option with Rose. He can’t go back in his own timeline and see the two of them together, so he looks in on a Rose that doesn’t know him yet.
And when a complete (albeit totally beautiful) stranger steps out of the shadows to ask a teen girl what day it is, Rose Tyler acts like she’s just met her best friend. The Doctor’s face is PAINED as he talks to her, especially when she tells him it’s 2005. He knows that she has all of their adventures ahead of her, while he’s already left them behind. And then, (this is what shattered me this time), the camera follows Rose into her building and up the stairs through the window, until she’s completely out of sight. BECAUSE HE DID TOO. CAN YOU STAND IT?
The first and last face this face saw.