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Doctor Who
Season 7, Episode 10: Hide
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To be perfectly honest, the convoluted plotting of Series 6 left me exhausted and more than a little frustrated with Doctor Who. I was missing the standalone episodes that pluck the Doctor and friends out of their own serial dramas and get them busy having a good old fashioned adventure. Happily, the good lord Moffat has heard my cries, and Series 7 has been rich in “Monster of the Week” fun. I was SO looking forward to watching and recapping “Hide,” which seemed to have all the hallmarks of a spooky Doctor Who classic. A huge, fuck-off Victorian manor? Check. Attractive ghost hunters in tasteful 70s fashions? Check. A scary thunderstorm? You got it. It’s ghost time.

Ghostbusters Doctor Who

The Doctor and Clara show up on the door step of Downton Shabby to meet aforementioned good-looking explorers Emma Grayling (Jessica Raine, who is also starring as Verity Lambert in the dramatization of Who‘s origin story) and Major Alec Palmer (Dougray Scott – Drew Barrymore’s prince – you’re welcome). And then the Doctor does that thing where he meets someone he admires and shamelessly fangirls him. Alec is a seeker of knowledge – a man who bought a huge, fuck-off Victorian manor just so he could investigate its haunting – just the Doctor’s type.

But it’s not all man-crushes and toggle switches. Alec is haunted, not by the Caliban Ghast, but by the ghosts of his past. He has killed and “has caused to have killed” and he really doesn’t know how else to live his life but to keep on reaching out for the next mystery. Sound like anyone we know?

Like the Doctor, Alec is not alone. The lovely Emma serves his project as an empathic psychic – he catalogs the appearances of the ghast, while Emma interprets her emotions. But she also gives him a reason to hold on. The Major is not exactly forthcoming with his feelings about her though, until the moment of crisis arrives. (SOUND LIKE ANYONE WE KNOW?) “You brought me back from the dead,” he tells her.

And here is where I launch into my frantic analysis of the Rose Tyler parallels and allusions in this episode. I know that I am biased, and maybe I’m seeing things that I want to see, but writer Neil Cross (Luther showrunner, “The Rings of Akhaten”) has packed so many references into this episode that I can’t be making them ALL up:

  • The “ghost”, really time traveler Hilla Tacorien, is stuck in a pocket universe, not a parallel one. But the term is bandied about quite a bit, with Clara trying to understand the difference between the two. Don’t tell me there isn’t a pang in his hearts when someone says those words.
  • The original ghostbusters.
  • The Doctor takes Clara to the end of the earth to prove his theory about Hilla’s whereabouts (whenabouts?). At the VERY SAME MOMENT, Nine and Rose are holding hands and watching the planet’s death from Platform One. Stop taking your dates to watch the world end, Doctor. It makes us feel very insignificant.
  • When they say goodbye, Alec asks the Doctor what he and Emma should do now. The Doctor tells them to “hold hands.” “Keep doing that, and don’t let go.” I juuuuust…

  • In fact, the entire relationship between Alec and Emma is very Rose and Doctor-esque. I wrote in one of my playlist posts about Rose’s deep empathy for the Doctor. More than any other modern companion, she seemed to feel what he was feeling. (“Girl in the Fireplace” is the ultimate proof of that.) And Emma is an empath – very literally able to do that. That skill serves Alec personally more than professionally. He needed someone to bring him back, someone who would only consider his past mistakes in terms of how they still affect him. This is so Rose and Nine that it hurts.
  • The moment where everyone in the Doctor/Rose fandom fell apart: “It’s the oldest story in the universe, this one or any other. Boy and girl fall in love, get separated by events, war, politics, accidents in time. Since they’ve been yearning for each other, across time and space across dimensions! It’s not a ghost story, it’s a love story!”
Doomsday wall Doctor Who

No.

Now that I have that out of my system, let’s get back to the companion at hand. Just because this was a MoTW ep, it doesn’t mean that the Clara mystery was ignored. Quite the contrary. The whole reason that the Doctor came to meet Alec and Emma in 1974 was to learn more about the impossible girl. Emma is sure that Clara is completely normal. But Emma is an empath, not a Time Lord. She doesn’t have the depth of knowledge to explain entities from other worlds or times. She could only feel what Hilla felt, not identify her origin. So: the only way she could explain Clara would be if Clara HERSELF knew what she was. Am I rambling? I feel like I’m rambling.

Clara Tardis

Besides Emma’s analysis, the other Clara clues in “Hide” were the pops of bright red that are always near her (this time, the umbrella and her signature bag) and the fact that the TARDIS still rejects her. The TARDIS was giving me serious Tinkerbell vibes this episode, especially when she used Clara’s own image for the visual interface. Is she jealous, or does her dislike have to do with the anomaly of Clara? As others have pointed out, the TARDIS also doesn’t like Jack – another impossibility. The Doctor brushes the friction off when she mentions it, but I think he’s weighing it along with the rest of the clues to Clara.

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Kirsten Wiig cries over Rose and Ten

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You may have noticed that Kim and I didn’t do our usual red carpet and award show coverage for this year’s Grammys. Why? Because even people who win Grammys know that the Grammys are basically irrelevant.

But let’s just put a pin in that for now. Today, we’re going to use the Grammys for our own selfish reasons, and those reasons are OTP-related. This week’s playlist highlights are all by 2013 Grammy nominated or Grammy winning artists. And being a featured artist on Head Over Feels is the REAL prize.

“Ghosts That We Knew” – Mumford & Sons

“You saw my pain washed out in the rain
Broken glass, saw the blood run from my veins
But you saw no fault, no cracks in my heart
And you knelt beside my hope torn apart

So lead me back, turn south from that place
And close my eyes to my recent disgrace
‘Cause you know my call
And we’ll share my all
And our children come and they will hear me roar.”

If this 50th anniversary business doesn’t give us some kind of update on TenToo/Rose and their adorable babies, I QUIT. Seriously, I am out. You can keep your bow ties and your sonics and your crippling heartbreak. I’ll have escaped and started a fandom for, like, that new Ron Weasley show from the My Name is Earl guy or something.

“Gold” – Original Broadway Cast of Once

“And I love her so
I wouldn’t trade her for gold
I’m walking on moon beams
I was born with a silver spoon
And I’m gonna be me
I’m gonna be free
I’m walking on moon beams
And staring out to sea.”

We all have those friends, right? The ones who prefer their relationships to be dramatic and tragic 24/7? I’ve never understood that. If you don’t have fun together, why is it even worth it?

When Rose tells Nine that life is “better with two,” she’s right. But it’s gotta be the RIGHT two. If Doctor Who were about two miserable people who bicker all the time and then retreat to their separate rooms to write emo-y LiveJournal posts, I don’t think this fandom would even exist.

“Gold” is about the people in this world who, when you’re with them, make you the very best version of yourself. You can practically see the weight fall off of the Doctor’s shoulders as Series 1 progresses. And he never forgets it. He may not have been able to say those three little words on Bad Wolf Bay, but he comes close. “You made me better,” he says to her. And isn’t that basically the same thing?

Nine and Rose hold hands

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Rose and Nine hand grab

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Music business, I am on to you. You’re all secret Doctor Who fans. Just admit it. Let your Whovian freak flag fly.

A few of you are doing a particularly shoddy job of keeping your fandom membership under wraps. Why else would your songs show up six, seven, EIGHT times on our Rose/Doctor playlist?

This week’s post is about the most well-represented artists on our soundtrack to the universe’s greatest OTP. Whether you know it or not, you’ve been writing music that perfectly scores our Rose and Doctor.

Also, Coldplay remains awesome. David agrees. Deal with it.

“Building a Mystery” – Sarah McLachlan

“You woke up screaming aloud
A prayer from your secret god
You feed off our fears
And hold back your tears, oh

Give us a tantrum
And a know-it-all grin
Just when we need one
When the evening’s thin

Oh you’re a beautiful
A beautiful fucked up man
You’re setting up your
Razor wire shrine.”

I’ve had to cross reference this song in my mind, as it has always been, until now, strictly a Fox Mulder anthem.

Look at those lyrics. That’s 100% the FBI’s Most Unwanted. But Fox is going to have to share it with my Doctor. They have a lot in common, after all. Complex and single-minded. Emotions turning on a dime. Obsessed with their own, specific morality. And they both press all my romantic, anti-hero buttons.

On a personal note: where did weird, folky Sarah McLachlan go and why was she replaced with Adult Contemporary Sad Dog Commercial Sarah McLachlan? Remember that time she spent an entire music video naked in a mud pit? I blame the kids. And the ASPCA.

“Dreaming with a Broken Heart” – John Mayer

“When you’re dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with your crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No she can’t, ’cause she’s gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.”

When pressed to choose, I will usually pick the “Impossible Planet”/”Satan Pit” two-parter as my favorite modern era Who episode. But maybe I should change my answer, because I keep coming back to “Human Nature”/”The Family of Blood” in these posts.

We’re mostly used to the enigmatic and manic Doctor that Sarah was singing about just a few seconds ago. But, ugh, how these episodes get right into the heart of him like no others do. The Doctor-Doctor won’t tell Rose how he feels about her. He won’t tell anyone else either, and hardly admits it to himself. But John Smith doesn’t know that. He just dreams and writes it down.

This is what’s ACTUALLY written in “The Journal of Impossible Things” and why people who deny that Rose/Ten is a real thing are just plain wrong:

“I find myself wanting to draw a perfect Rose, over and over although I cannot find a Rose anywhere!
Roses
Perfect Rose
The perfect Rose
It’s a perfect rose.
Perfect Rose
Rose perfect Rose
Perfect Rose
Perfect Rose
Perfect Rose
Perfect Rose
In my dreams I keep asking a girl where to find one, and she is dressed in the most extraordinarily immodest way.
She will not answer me, and she keeps walking away.
I keep dreaming of a girl.
Girl in my dreams
I remember this girl I have drawn her although I know her well in my dream
I know her well I know.
I know her
She is my-“

Just plain wrong, I tell ya.

Rose I keep dreaming of a girl

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Even though I was born in Michigan, I grew up in Nashville, so country music is practically ingrained into my DNA.  I LOVE country music, and I get very annoyed when anyone says they hate it.  In fact, I am convinced that anyone that says they hate country music has never really given it a chance.  Sure there are some TERRIBLE songs (“Red Solo Cup” is the most recent big hit that comes to mind), but that’s true of any genre (“Gangnam Style” anyone?).  To me, what sets Country Music apart as a genre is its focus on story telling.  Not that a good pop song can’t tell a story (we’ve got hundreds on this playlist that do) but country songs often take it to the next level and can make you feel all sorts of emotions.   Naturally, there are many country songs on this playlist that conjure up Doctor Who feelings.  So those who claim to HATE country should give these songs a listen and then get back to me.

And if you get back to me and say you still hate country music, I can’t help you.  And I also question whether or not you have a soul.

“Somebody Like You” – Keith Urban

“There’s a new wind blowing like I’ve never known.
I’m breathing deeper than I’ve ever done.
And it sure feels good to finally feel the way I do.
I wanna love somebody, love somebody like you.

And I’m letting go of all my lonely yesterdays.
I’ve forgivin’ myself for the mistakes I’ve made.
Now there’s just one thing, the only thing I wanna do.
I wanna love somebody, love somebody like you…”

This song screams the Ninth Doctor at the end of “End of the World”, which I also covered in my last playlist post.  While the Doctor still has many many gruff moments post “End of the World” (which IS only the second episode of the series), I always pinpoint the end of that episode as the moment where The Doctor started to heal and began to open himself up to Rose.  He doesn’t completely change all at once, there would be no fun in that.  It’s an ongoing process.   But in that moment where he and Rose head off to get some chips, The Doctor begins to let go of his past and relax and allows himself to think that there could be something more for him.

Rose and NIne walking

“Come on then, tightwad. Chips are on me. We’ve only got five billion years ’til the shops close. “

“I Run To You” – Lady Antebellum

“We run on fumes
Your life and mine
Like the sands of time
Slippin’ right on through
And our love’s the only truth
That’s why I run to you.

This world keeps spinning faster
Into a new disaster so I run to you
I run to you baby
And when it all starts coming undone
Baby you’re the only one I run to
I run to you.”

This song is about partnership and finding that one person you can count on above anyone else.  If that is not what you think the Doctor and Rose are to each other, then you are watching the show wrong.  Fact.

Rose and Nine laugh

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Nine looks at Rose

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It’s Playlist Post #12 and we are shaking it up! You’ll notice that the title of the post has been changed to “Rose and THE DOCTOR Feels” to reflect our Time Lord’s enduring love for Rose Tyler in all his reincarnations. We’ve talked Nine, Ten, Eleven, and TenToo here, so it’s only right.

And if that’s not exciting enough, today’s blog is by viewer request. We were challenged to do a post entirely on duets! I’ve picked five such songs from our now 554-track playlist for your reading and listening pleasure. And obviously I made sure to get an 80s movie soundtrack staple in there somewhere. The 80s were all about duets.

“Mirror” – Amber Rubarth, featuring Jason Mraz

“I read your words backwards
And as hard as I try
When the room steams up, I turn in and hide
Been dropped more than once
I don’t claim to be new
I only notice the cracks when they break across you.”

NINE. NINE. NINE.

All Nine, all the time.

Nine is all swaggering confidence and steely reserve before he starts to see himself through Rose’s eyes. He doesn’t think things through and his solution to pretty much any conflict is “kill everything.” Let’s go back to “Dalek,” because my beloved Rose can even make the most hateful creature in the galaxy like her. She’s standing between the Doctor and the Dalek, and the Doctor is ready to shoot.

The Doctor: “Rose, get out of the way now!’
Rose: “No! Cause I won’t let you do this.”
The Doctor: “That thing killed hundreds of people.”
Rose Tyler: “It’s not the one pointing the gun at me.”

Rose was always the most compassionate of all the companions and so best one for the post-war Doctor to meet first. When he sees that she is more afraid of him than of the Dalek, he’s horrified. It’s his worst nightmare. So he has to try to change.

I also love this episode, because it’s a Dalek who’s the first to give the Doctor real talk about his love for Rose. Even the Daleks ship it.

“You and I” – Secondhand Serenade

“I know, I’m not alone.
I’m not the only one who is broken.
And I know I’ll never let you go.
I could watch the world pass by,
Just as long as it’s you and I, you and I.

I watch you take over.
I’ll give you this offer:
Take my hand and we’ll run away,
Leave behind our past to stay.
Decaying ’til it’s rotten.
A we’ll have long forgotten
The memories that will haunt your heart.
Let’s tear this town apart.”

Earlier this week, I came across my new favorite Nine/Rose head canon in a Tumblr post. I take absolutely no credit for this theory, but I do now 100% subscribe to it. See if you agree:

“When the Ninth Doctor first asked Rose to travel through time with him and refused, the Doctor accepted that and moved on. He traveled through space and time, saving the universe, all lonely for years thinking “I wish Rose could have been here.” Eventually, he goes back to a few seconds after he left Rose and says “By the way, did I mention it also travels in time?”

Rose never knew how long the Doctor waited for her.”

I MEAN, COULD YOU JUST DIE?

Then, a reply adds to it. To paraphrase: this head canon makes sense, because we see photos of the Ninth Doctor at points throughout history, even though he acts, during the events of this first episode, like this face is brand new. So we know that the Doctor in his Ninth regeneration was at the JFK assassination, but it couldn’t have been before “Rose” or after she ran away with him. It had to be during that amorphous amount of time between Rose’s rejection and “Did I mention it also travels in time?”

He CAME BACK. After ALL THAT TIME. Because he knew he needed her. Excuse while I just…

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“Rescue me, Chin Boy, and show me the stars!”  — Oswin Oswald, “Asylum of the Daleks”

“But every night, Doctor. When it gets dark, and the stars come out, I’ll look up on her behalf. I’ll look up at the sky. And think of you.” — Wilfred Mott, “Journey’s End”

“It’s all waiting out there, Jackie. And it’s brand new to me. All those planets, creatures and horizons—I haven’t seen them yet. Not with these eyes. And it is gonna be… fantastic.”  –The Tenth Doctor, “The Christmas Invasion”

Yeah, yeah, I know that neither one of these quotes were said by our heroine, Rose Tyler.  But I DO think that these quotes demonstrate one of the greatest appeals of traveling with The Doctor for the companion…seeing the stars!  It’s why Rose ran away with The Doctor in the first place…she knew she wanted to see something MORE than what she had going on in her current life.  Heck, it’s why we all watch the show.  It’s why I went to Space Camp THREE TIMES (#nerdalert).  We ALL want to run away with The Doctor and see all of time and space.  It’s why we’re on constant alert for that TARDIS sound.

Needless to say, there are a LOT of songs about the stars out there, and there are quite a few on our epic playlist.  Let’s take a look at some, shall we?

“Oh My Stars” – Andrew Belle

“Tell me all about your foreign wars
And all about the photographs that line your drawers
Cause i know a lot about closing doors
But not enough about what opens up yours

Oh my my
Oh my stars
Everything you see is ours
Or it could be if you would try
 I wish you would
 I wish you might
Oh oh
If everything you’ve said to me has been true
Then all my stars are leading me to you…”

This song SCREAMS Rose and Nine to me (and YES, I realize we talk a LOT about Nine here.  Because he is awesome.  Perhaps we should just rename these posts Rose and the Doctor feels?).  “Oh My Stars” conjures up images of when Rose first started traveling with The Doctor, when he was all prickly and brooding.  And (oh so gently) Rose would push him to start to FEEL again.  Conversations like this one from “The End of the World” would happen:

The Doctor: You think it’ll last forever. People and cars and concrete. But it won’t. One day it’s all gone. Even the sky. My planet’s gone. It’s dead. It burned like the Earth. It’s just rocks and dust. Before its time.
Rose: What happened?
The Doctor: There was a war and we lost.
Rose: A war with who? What about your people?
The Doctor: I’m a Time Lord. I’m the last of the Time Lords. They’re all gone. I’m the only survivor. I’m left traveling on my own because there’s no one else.
Rose: There’s me.

And thus Rose Tyler, a completely ordinary girl from London, began to melt the heart of a 900 year old Time Lord and heal his battered soul.

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Rose Tyler Happy New Year

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Your favorite OTP playlist took a break over the holiday season, but we’re back! Yes, it’s 2013 and we are still writing about these idiots and their stupidly gorgeous faces.

This week’s playlist post is all about time, that heartless bitch. You might think life with a TARDIS would make time inconsequential, but nope. Nope, nope, nope. As hard as he tries to outrun it or stretch it out, the Doctor’s time with his companions always ends. These five songs are all about the the role that time plays in the relationship between the Doctor and Rose Tyler.

*Disclaimer: When I told Kim which songs I picked for this week, she replied, “KILL ME.” So, you know. Fair warning.

“Time” – Chantal Kreviazuk

Time, where did you go?
Why did you leave me here alone?
Wait, don’t go so fast
I’m missing the moments as they pass

I rewatched the “End of Time” two-parter right before Christmas and was just flattened by a few things I hadn’t noticed about this heartbreaking scene.  The Doctor knows that he’s dying, and he’s on a farewell tour to all of his companions. He visits everyone in the “present” of their timelines (Martha and Mickey are engaged, Donna’s getting married), but, of course, he doesn’t have that option with Rose. He can’t go back in his own timeline and see the two of them together, so he looks in on a Rose that doesn’t know him yet.

And when a complete (albeit totally beautiful) stranger steps out of the shadows to ask a teen girl what day it is, Rose Tyler acts like she’s just met her best friend. The Doctor’s face is PAINED as he talks to her, especially when she tells him it’s 2005. He knows that she has all of their adventures ahead of her, while he’s already left them behind. And then, (this is what shattered me this time), the camera follows Rose into her building and up the stairs through the window, until she’s completely out of sight. BECAUSE HE DID TOO. CAN YOU STAND IT?

Ten End of Time breath

Rose Tyler running up stairs

The first and last face this face saw.

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