You may have noticed that Kim and I didn’t do our usual red carpet and award show coverage for this year’s Grammys. Why? Because even people who win Grammys know that the Grammys are basically irrelevant.
But let’s just put a pin in that for now. Today, we’re going to use the Grammys for our own selfish reasons, and those reasons are OTP-related. This week’s playlist highlights are all by 2013 Grammy nominated or Grammy winning artists. And being a featured artist on Head Over Feels is the REAL prize.
“You saw my pain washed out in the rain
Broken glass, saw the blood run from my veins
But you saw no fault, no cracks in my heart
And you knelt beside my hope torn apart
So lead me back, turn south from that place
And close my eyes to my recent disgrace
‘Cause you know my call
And we’ll share my all
And our children come and they will hear me roar.”
If this 50th anniversary business doesn’t give us some kind of update on TenToo/Rose and their adorable babies, I QUIT. Seriously, I am out. You can keep your bow ties and your sonics and your crippling heartbreak. I’ll have escaped and started a fandom for, like, that new Ron Weasley show from the My Name is Earl guy or something.
“And I love her so
I wouldn’t trade her for gold
I’m walking on moon beams
I was born with a silver spoon
And I’m gonna be me
I’m gonna be free
I’m walking on moon beams
And staring out to sea.”
We all have those friends, right? The ones who prefer their relationships to be dramatic and tragic 24/7? I’ve never understood that. If you don’t have fun together, why is it even worth it?
When Rose tells Nine that life is “better with two,” she’s right. But it’s gotta be the RIGHT two. If Doctor Who were about two miserable people who bicker all the time and then retreat to their separate rooms to write emo-y LiveJournal posts, I don’t think this fandom would even exist.
“Gold” is about the people in this world who, when you’re with them, make you the very best version of yourself. You can practically see the weight fall off of the Doctor’s shoulders as Series 1 progresses. And he never forgets it. He may not have been able to say those three little words on Bad Wolf Bay, but he comes close. “You made me better,” he says to her. And isn’t that basically the same thing?
Music business, I am on to you. You’re all secret Doctor Who fans. Just admit it. Let your Whovian freak flag fly.
A few of you are doing a particularly shoddy job of keeping your fandom membership under wraps. Why else would your songs show up six, seven, EIGHT times on our Rose/Doctor playlist?
This week’s post is about the most well-represented artists on our soundtrack to the universe’s greatest OTP. Whether you know it or not, you’ve been writing music that perfectly scores our Rose and Doctor.
Also, Coldplay remains awesome. David agrees. Deal with it.
“You woke up screaming aloud
A prayer from your secret god
You feed off our fears
And hold back your tears, oh
Give us a tantrum
And a know-it-all grin
Just when we need one
When the evening’s thin
Oh you’re a beautiful
A beautiful fucked up man
You’re setting up your
Razor wire shrine.”
I’ve had to cross reference this song in my mind, as it has always been, until now, strictly a Fox Mulder anthem.
Look at those lyrics. That’s 100% the FBI’s Most Unwanted. But Fox is going to have to share it with my Doctor. They have a lot in common, after all. Complex and single-minded. Emotions turning on a dime. Obsessed with their own, specific morality. And they both press all my romantic, anti-hero buttons.
On a personal note: where did weird, folky Sarah McLachlan go and why was she replaced with Adult Contemporary Sad Dog Commercial Sarah McLachlan? Remember that time she spent an entire music video naked in a mud pit? I blame the kids. And the ASPCA.
“When you’re dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with your crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No she can’t, ’cause she’s gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.”
When pressed to choose, I will usually pick the “Impossible Planet”/”Satan Pit” two-parter as my favorite modern era Who episode. But maybe I should change my answer, because I keep coming back to “Human Nature”/”The Family of Blood” in these posts.
We’re mostly used to the enigmatic and manic Doctor that Sarah was singing about just a few seconds ago. But, ugh, how these episodes get right into the heart of him like no others do. The Doctor-Doctor won’t tell Rose how he feels about her. He won’t tell anyone else either, and hardly admits it to himself. But John Smith doesn’t know that. He just dreams and writes it down.
This is what’s ACTUALLY written in “The Journal of Impossible Things” and why people who deny that Rose/Ten is a real thing are just plain wrong:
“I find myself wanting to draw a perfect Rose, over and over although I cannot find a Rose anywhere!
The perfect Rose
It’s a perfect rose.
Rose perfect Rose
In my dreams I keep asking a girl where to find one, and she is dressed in the most extraordinarily immodest way.
She will not answer me, and she keeps walking away.
I keep dreaming of a girl.
Girl in my dreams
I remember this girl I have drawn her although I know her well in my dream
I know her well I know.
I know her
She is my-“
Just plain wrong, I tell ya.
Even though I was born in Michigan, I grew up in Nashville, so country music is practically ingrained into my DNA. I LOVE country music, and I get very annoyed when anyone says they hate it. In fact, I am convinced that anyone that says they hate country music has never really given it a chance. Sure there are some TERRIBLE songs (“Red Solo Cup” is the most recent big hit that comes to mind), but that’s true of any genre (“Gangnam Style” anyone?). To me, what sets Country Music apart as a genre is its focus on story telling. Not that a good pop song can’t tell a story (we’ve got hundreds on this playlist that do) but country songs often take it to the next level and can make you feel all sorts of emotions. Naturally, there are many country songs on this playlist that conjure up Doctor Who feelings. So those who claim to HATE country should give these songs a listen and then get back to me.
And if you get back to me and say you still hate country music, I can’t help you. And I also question whether or not you have a soul.
“There’s a new wind blowing like I’ve never known.
I’m breathing deeper than I’ve ever done.
And it sure feels good to finally feel the way I do.
I wanna love somebody, love somebody like you.
And I’m letting go of all my lonely yesterdays.
I’ve forgivin’ myself for the mistakes I’ve made.
Now there’s just one thing, the only thing I wanna do.
I wanna love somebody, love somebody like you…”
This song screams the Ninth Doctor at the end of “End of the World”, which I also covered in my last playlist post. While the Doctor still has many many gruff moments post “End of the World” (which IS only the second episode of the series), I always pinpoint the end of that episode as the moment where The Doctor started to heal and began to open himself up to Rose. He doesn’t completely change all at once, there would be no fun in that. It’s an ongoing process. But in that moment where he and Rose head off to get some chips, The Doctor begins to let go of his past and relax and allows himself to think that there could be something more for him.
“We run on fumes
Your life and mine
Like the sands of time
Slippin’ right on through
And our love’s the only truth
That’s why I run to you.
This world keeps spinning faster
Into a new disaster so I run to you
I run to you baby
And when it all starts coming undone
Baby you’re the only one I run to
I run to you.”
This song is about partnership and finding that one person you can count on above anyone else. If that is not what you think the Doctor and Rose are to each other, then you are watching the show wrong. Fact.
“Rescue me, Chin Boy, and show me the stars!” — Oswin Oswald, “Asylum of the Daleks”
“But every night, Doctor. When it gets dark, and the stars come out, I’ll look up on her behalf. I’ll look up at the sky. And think of you.” — Wilfred Mott, “Journey’s End”
“It’s all waiting out there, Jackie. And it’s brand new to me. All those planets, creatures and horizons—I haven’t seen them yet. Not with these eyes. And it is gonna be… fantastic.” –The Tenth Doctor, “The Christmas Invasion”
Yeah, yeah, I know that neither one of these quotes were said by our heroine, Rose Tyler. But I DO think that these quotes demonstrate one of the greatest appeals of traveling with The Doctor for the companion…seeing the stars! It’s why Rose ran away with The Doctor in the first place…she knew she wanted to see something MORE than what she had going on in her current life. Heck, it’s why we all watch the show. It’s why I went to Space Camp THREE TIMES (#nerdalert). We ALL want to run away with The Doctor and see all of time and space. It’s why we’re on constant alert for that TARDIS sound.
Needless to say, there are a LOT of songs about the stars out there, and there are quite a few on our epic playlist. Let’s take a look at some, shall we?
“Tell me all about your foreign wars
And all about the photographs that line your drawers
Cause i know a lot about closing doors
But not enough about what opens up yours
Oh my my
Oh my stars
Everything you see is ours
Or it could be if you would try
I wish you would
I wish you might
If everything you’ve said to me has been true
Then all my stars are leading me to you…”
This song SCREAMS Rose and Nine to me (and YES, I realize we talk a LOT about Nine here. Because he is awesome. Perhaps we should just rename these posts Rose and the Doctor feels?). “Oh My Stars” conjures up images of when Rose first started traveling with The Doctor, when he was all prickly and brooding. And (oh so gently) Rose would push him to start to FEEL again. Conversations like this one from “The End of the World” would happen:
The Doctor: You think it’ll last forever. People and cars and concrete. But it won’t. One day it’s all gone. Even the sky. My planet’s gone. It’s dead. It burned like the Earth. It’s just rocks and dust. Before its time.
Rose: What happened?
The Doctor: There was a war and we lost.
Rose: A war with who? What about your people?
The Doctor: I’m a Time Lord. I’m the last of the Time Lords. They’re all gone. I’m the only survivor. I’m left traveling on my own because there’s no one else.
Rose: There’s me.
And thus Rose Tyler, a completely ordinary girl from London, began to melt the heart of a 900 year old Time Lord and heal his battered soul.
It’s no secret that Sage and I are big music fans….the fact that this playlist is 535 songs (and counting) should make that fact abundantly clear. The wonderful thing about music is that you can hear a song and you can instantly be transported to the movie or TV scene it played in or the moment you heard the song for the first time. We’ve got some songs on the playlist that will forever be associated with something else. But that doesn’t mean they can’t apply to Rose and Ten or Doctor Who in general. Let’s take a look at a few, shall we?
“Chasing Cars” – Snow Patrol
“I don’t quite know
How to say how I feel.
Those three words
Are said too much
They’re not enough.
If I lay here,
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?”
“Chasing Cars” is FOREVER linked with the Season Two finale of Grey’s Anatomy (“I thought I was a surgeon, but I’m NOT. So I quit.”) but very much applies to Rose and Ten as well. Look at that gif. In my head canon, Rose and Ten had many days like that…peaceful days where no trouble found them. No monsters. No threats of imminent destruction. No need to save the universe. Just days where they were together laying on the ground with his overcoat spread out beneath them while they talked and snuggled and watched the world go by. Yep. It happened all the time.
And “I don’t quite know how to say how I feel. Those three words, they’re said too much”? Nope. Not at all relevant to their relationship.
OH WAIT EXCEPT IT TOTALLY IS RELEVANT.
The real world is a minefield for fangirls. At any moment, we might see a seemingly harmless object or hear someone say a common phrase and be plunged into OTP feels. See what happens when you show a Rose/Ten fan a pair of 3D glasses or throw a “quite right, too” into a conversation. Frankly, I’m still not really comfortable around the Staples Easy button.
For this week’s playlist post, I picked five of my favorite Rose/Ten moments – the ones that threaten to pop into my head at any time and throw me into an emotional tailspin – and found the songs in the playlist that most remind me of them. Stay away from windows, my friends. This is a tough one.
“Love of mine, some day you will die
But I’ll be close behind
I’ll follow you into the dark
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the ‘NO’s on their vacancy signs
If there’s no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I’ll follow you into the dark.”
When the Doctor realizes what he has to do to save the Earth from the impending Dalek and Cybermen invasion, he jumps into impersonal, busy Time Lord mode. He already knows what he has to do to protect Rose and he can hardly look at her. We all know that something is terribly, terribly wrong but still don’t quite comprehend just how hard Russell T. Davies is about to screw us.
Meanwhile, Rose isn’t having it. The practical thing would be for her to get as far away from danger as she can, but love ain’t practical y’all. She’s even willing to say goodbye to her parents forever. Shit is getting real.
“I made my decision a long time ago, and I am never gonna leave you.”
And HIS FACE at that part! (I spend most my time watching Ten episodes yelling, “YOUR FACE” at the screen. Kim’s seen it.) He is STRUGGLING to do the selfless thing, but he desperately wants her to stay. Ugh. Acting.
Whenever I go to the gym, I always hashtag my FourSquare check-in #runningfortheTARDIS. Technically I guess I should say #ellipticallingfortheTARDIS, but that just doesn’t roll off the tongue as well. It is both a way to connect with my fitness buddy Jenn and very often my sole motivating factor that gets me through my cardio. Cause let’s face it. They do a LOT of running on Doctor Who. And when the Doctor comes for me (SHUT UP HE WILL), I want to be ready. I can’t be slowing him down when we are running away from Daleks or Cybermen or Dinosaurs!
There also happen to be a lot of songs about running on the playlist. Songs about running away together. Songs about running TOWARDS each other. Best of all, songs that capture that incandescent and reckless feeling that comes along with being head over heels in love with someone. Bonus: All but one of these songs are pretty happy, so you won’t want to kill yourself at the end of this post.
“Get Out of This Town” – Carrie Underwood
“Let’s get out of this town tonight!
Nothing but dust in the shadows,
Gone by morning light.
Somewhere we won’t ever get caught, ever be found,
Baby, let’s just get out of this town!
Don’t need directions, don’t need a map
If we get lost I’ll be good with that.
Yeah, we’ll find a way to make the time pass…”
For as much as we focus on all the ANGST that comes along with Rose and Ten (because we do love all the angst) we tend to forget about the times when they were just blissfully happy together. The giggling and flirting in “Tooth and Claw”. The opening scene of “The Idiot’s Lantern” (“You going my way, doll?”). Their sexy sleuthing in “Fear Her”. And that running gif completely personifies this song. Yeah, they are likely running for their lives at that point. But that moment when they look at each other and just LAUGH and keep running. He’s saying, “Let’s get out of here, baby.” That, my dear readers, is the breathless feeling of being in love personified.
And the line “Yeah, we’ll find a way to make the time pass…” = doing it, doing it, TARDIS doing it. You know this to be true.