You may have noticed that Kim and I didn’t do our usual red carpet and award show coverage for this year’s Grammys. Why? Because even people who win Grammys know that the Grammys are basically irrelevant.
But let’s just put a pin in that for now. Today, we’re going to use the Grammys for our own selfish reasons, and those reasons are OTP-related. This week’s playlist highlights are all by 2013 Grammy nominated or Grammy winning artists. And being a featured artist on Head Over Feels is the REAL prize.
“You saw my pain washed out in the rain
Broken glass, saw the blood run from my veins
But you saw no fault, no cracks in my heart
And you knelt beside my hope torn apart
So lead me back, turn south from that place
And close my eyes to my recent disgrace
‘Cause you know my call
And we’ll share my all
And our children come and they will hear me roar.”
If this 50th anniversary business doesn’t give us some kind of update on TenToo/Rose and their adorable babies, I QUIT. Seriously, I am out. You can keep your bow ties and your sonics and your crippling heartbreak. I’ll have escaped and started a fandom for, like, that new Ron Weasley show from the My Name is Earl guy or something.
“And I love her so
I wouldn’t trade her for gold
I’m walking on moon beams
I was born with a silver spoon
And I’m gonna be me
I’m gonna be free
I’m walking on moon beams
And staring out to sea.”
We all have those friends, right? The ones who prefer their relationships to be dramatic and tragic 24/7? I’ve never understood that. If you don’t have fun together, why is it even worth it?
When Rose tells Nine that life is “better with two,” she’s right. But it’s gotta be the RIGHT two. If Doctor Who were about two miserable people who bicker all the time and then retreat to their separate rooms to write emo-y LiveJournal posts, I don’t think this fandom would even exist.
“Gold” is about the people in this world who, when you’re with them, make you the very best version of yourself. You can practically see the weight fall off of the Doctor’s shoulders as Series 1 progresses. And he never forgets it. He may not have been able to say those three little words on Bad Wolf Bay, but he comes close. “You made me better,” he says to her. And isn’t that basically the same thing?
Music business, I am on to you. You’re all secret Doctor Who fans. Just admit it. Let your Whovian freak flag fly.
A few of you are doing a particularly shoddy job of keeping your fandom membership under wraps. Why else would your songs show up six, seven, EIGHT times on our Rose/Doctor playlist?
This week’s post is about the most well-represented artists on our soundtrack to the universe’s greatest OTP. Whether you know it or not, you’ve been writing music that perfectly scores our Rose and Doctor.
Also, Coldplay remains awesome. David agrees. Deal with it.
“You woke up screaming aloud
A prayer from your secret god
You feed off our fears
And hold back your tears, oh
Give us a tantrum
And a know-it-all grin
Just when we need one
When the evening’s thin
Oh you’re a beautiful
A beautiful fucked up man
You’re setting up your
Razor wire shrine.”
I’ve had to cross reference this song in my mind, as it has always been, until now, strictly a Fox Mulder anthem.
Look at those lyrics. That’s 100% the FBI’s Most Unwanted. But Fox is going to have to share it with my Doctor. They have a lot in common, after all. Complex and single-minded. Emotions turning on a dime. Obsessed with their own, specific morality. And they both press all my romantic, anti-hero buttons.
On a personal note: where did weird, folky Sarah McLachlan go and why was she replaced with Adult Contemporary Sad Dog Commercial Sarah McLachlan? Remember that time she spent an entire music video naked in a mud pit? I blame the kids. And the ASPCA.
“When you’re dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with your crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No she can’t, ’cause she’s gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.”
When pressed to choose, I will usually pick the “Impossible Planet”/”Satan Pit” two-parter as my favorite modern era Who episode. But maybe I should change my answer, because I keep coming back to “Human Nature”/”The Family of Blood” in these posts.
We’re mostly used to the enigmatic and manic Doctor that Sarah was singing about just a few seconds ago. But, ugh, how these episodes get right into the heart of him like no others do. The Doctor-Doctor won’t tell Rose how he feels about her. He won’t tell anyone else either, and hardly admits it to himself. But John Smith doesn’t know that. He just dreams and writes it down.
This is what’s ACTUALLY written in “The Journal of Impossible Things” and why people who deny that Rose/Ten is a real thing are just plain wrong:
“I find myself wanting to draw a perfect Rose, over and over although I cannot find a Rose anywhere!
The perfect Rose
It’s a perfect rose.
Rose perfect Rose
In my dreams I keep asking a girl where to find one, and she is dressed in the most extraordinarily immodest way.
She will not answer me, and she keeps walking away.
I keep dreaming of a girl.
Girl in my dreams
I remember this girl I have drawn her although I know her well in my dream
I know her well I know.
I know her
She is my-“
Just plain wrong, I tell ya.
It’s Playlist Post #12 and we are shaking it up! You’ll notice that the title of the post has been changed to “Rose and THE DOCTOR Feels” to reflect our Time Lord’s enduring love for Rose Tyler in all his reincarnations. We’ve talked Nine, Ten, Eleven, and TenToo here, so it’s only right.
And if that’s not exciting enough, today’s blog is by viewer request. We were challenged to do a post entirely on duets! I’ve picked five such songs from our now 554-track playlist for your reading and listening pleasure. And obviously I made sure to get an 80s movie soundtrack staple in there somewhere. The 80s were all about duets.
“I read your words backwards
And as hard as I try
When the room steams up, I turn in and hide
Been dropped more than once
I don’t claim to be new
I only notice the cracks when they break across you.”
NINE. NINE. NINE.
All Nine, all the time.
Nine is all swaggering confidence and steely reserve before he starts to see himself through Rose’s eyes. He doesn’t think things through and his solution to pretty much any conflict is “kill everything.” Let’s go back to “Dalek,” because my beloved Rose can even make the most hateful creature in the galaxy like her. She’s standing between the Doctor and the Dalek, and the Doctor is ready to shoot.
The Doctor: “Rose, get out of the way now!’
Rose: “No! Cause I won’t let you do this.”
The Doctor: “That thing killed hundreds of people.”
Rose Tyler: “It’s not the one pointing the gun at me.”
Rose was always the most compassionate of all the companions and so best one for the post-war Doctor to meet first. When he sees that she is more afraid of him than of the Dalek, he’s horrified. It’s his worst nightmare. So he has to try to change.
I also love this episode, because it’s a Dalek who’s the first to give the Doctor real talk about his love for Rose. Even the Daleks ship it.
“I know, I’m not alone.
I’m not the only one who is broken.
And I know I’ll never let you go.
I could watch the world pass by,
Just as long as it’s you and I, you and I.
I watch you take over.
I’ll give you this offer:
Take my hand and we’ll run away,
Leave behind our past to stay.
Decaying ’til it’s rotten.
A we’ll have long forgotten
The memories that will haunt your heart.
Let’s tear this town apart.”
Earlier this week, I came across my new favorite Nine/Rose head canon in a Tumblr post. I take absolutely no credit for this theory, but I do now 100% subscribe to it. See if you agree:
“When the Ninth Doctor first asked Rose to travel through time with him and refused, the Doctor accepted that and moved on. He traveled through space and time, saving the universe, all lonely for years thinking “I wish Rose could have been here.” Eventually, he goes back to a few seconds after he left Rose and says “By the way, did I mention it also travels in time?”
Rose never knew how long the Doctor waited for her.”
I MEAN, COULD YOU JUST DIE?
Then, a reply adds to it. To paraphrase: this head canon makes sense, because we see photos of the Ninth Doctor at points throughout history, even though he acts, during the events of this first episode, like this face is brand new. So we know that the Doctor in his Ninth regeneration was at the JFK assassination, but it couldn’t have been before “Rose” or after she ran away with him. It had to be during that amorphous amount of time between Rose’s rejection and “Did I mention it also travels in time?”
He CAME BACK. After ALL THAT TIME. Because he knew he needed her. Excuse while I just…
Your favorite OTP playlist took a break over the holiday season, but we’re back! Yes, it’s 2013 and we are still writing about these idiots and their stupidly gorgeous faces.
This week’s playlist post is all about time, that heartless bitch. You might think life with a TARDIS would make time inconsequential, but nope. Nope, nope, nope. As hard as he tries to outrun it or stretch it out, the Doctor’s time with his companions always ends. These five songs are all about the the role that time plays in the relationship between the Doctor and Rose Tyler.
*Disclaimer: When I told Kim which songs I picked for this week, she replied, “KILL ME.” So, you know. Fair warning.
Time, where did you go?
Why did you leave me here alone?
Wait, don’t go so fast
I’m missing the moments as they pass
I rewatched the “End of Time” two-parter right before Christmas and was just flattened by a few things I hadn’t noticed about this heartbreaking scene. The Doctor knows that he’s dying, and he’s on a farewell tour to all of his companions. He visits everyone in the “present” of their timelines (Martha and Mickey are engaged, Donna’s getting married), but, of course, he doesn’t have that option with Rose. He can’t go back in his own timeline and see the two of them together, so he looks in on a Rose that doesn’t know him yet.
And when a complete (albeit totally beautiful) stranger steps out of the shadows to ask a teen girl what day it is, Rose Tyler acts like she’s just met her best friend. The Doctor’s face is PAINED as he talks to her, especially when she tells him it’s 2005. He knows that she has all of their adventures ahead of her, while he’s already left them behind. And then, (this is what shattered me this time), the camera follows Rose into her building and up the stairs through the window, until she’s completely out of sight. BECAUSE HE DID TOO. CAN YOU STAND IT?
The first and last face this face saw.
The real world is a minefield for fangirls. At any moment, we might see a seemingly harmless object or hear someone say a common phrase and be plunged into OTP feels. See what happens when you show a Rose/Ten fan a pair of 3D glasses or throw a “quite right, too” into a conversation. Frankly, I’m still not really comfortable around the Staples Easy button.
For this week’s playlist post, I picked five of my favorite Rose/Ten moments – the ones that threaten to pop into my head at any time and throw me into an emotional tailspin – and found the songs in the playlist that most remind me of them. Stay away from windows, my friends. This is a tough one.
“Love of mine, some day you will die
But I’ll be close behind
I’ll follow you into the dark
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the ‘NO’s on their vacancy signs
If there’s no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I’ll follow you into the dark.”
When the Doctor realizes what he has to do to save the Earth from the impending Dalek and Cybermen invasion, he jumps into impersonal, busy Time Lord mode. He already knows what he has to do to protect Rose and he can hardly look at her. We all know that something is terribly, terribly wrong but still don’t quite comprehend just how hard Russell T. Davies is about to screw us.
Meanwhile, Rose isn’t having it. The practical thing would be for her to get as far away from danger as she can, but love ain’t practical y’all. She’s even willing to say goodbye to her parents forever. Shit is getting real.
“I made my decision a long time ago, and I am never gonna leave you.”
And HIS FACE at that part! (I spend most my time watching Ten episodes yelling, “YOUR FACE” at the screen. Kim’s seen it.) He is STRUGGLING to do the selfless thing, but he desperately wants her to stay. Ugh. Acting.
I’m having a hard time starting this post, because I’m so distracted by this gif. He closes his eyes. HE CLOSES HIS EYES. Sigh. My OTP is more beautiful and star-crossed than yours.
Last week, the fangirl wife and I touted our respective favorites in the only 90s boy band standoff that matters: *N Sync for me, and BSB for Kimmie. In keeping with the theme, this week’s Rose and Ten Playlist picks are all teen pop oriented. I’ll take my gut-wrenching tragedy with a side of cheese, thank you.
“What could I give when you’ve got all you need?
And she looks at me like, ‘all I want’s a little free’
Every time I’m here with you it makes me see
That it’s alright, yeah, it’s alright
We’ll get away, be in love, we can make it better
All I need’s a little time for us to get together
Happiness is just a step away
When it’s alright, yeah, it’s alright
Just a girl like you, and maybe just a
Just a guy like me, maybe we
Could take a walk on the wild side
Take a look and see
Get up and go.”
We focus on the sads a lot in these posts, but let’s not forget the good times. In between all the slutty French ladies, aborted love confessions, and wretched goodbyes, Rose and Ten were just having a ball, boppin’ around the universe.
Remember that time they were more concerned about getting the Queen to say, “We are not amused,” than catching the GIANT WEREWOLF that was ripping people to shreds? And how Ten almost collapsed laughing when he realized that Pete’s World Rose was a yappy dog? And how they got all greaser-ed up in matching outfits for the 50s? And when Rose referred to her first trip as their “first date” and the Doctor didn’t argue? And the way they flirted like sexy, unrelated Hardy Boys in “Fear Her”?
This song makes me imagine what it must be like to go on history’s longest road trip with the one person in the whole universe you have the most fun with.
Also, Hanson is perfection.
How I feel about this playlist on a daily basis.
XOXO to Kim for taking over my last playlist post while I dealt with day-job craziness. The storm has passed and I can now again focus on what’s really important: soundtracking the romantic relationship of fictional characters.
The Doctor is such a rich character to analyze. He’s constantly dealing with all the realities of the universe and the turn of time, but with some very familiar and human emotions. And he’s almost completely undone by his love for this girl. All of my playlist selections today are from the heartbreaking POV of the Doctor.
“Looking through the photos you find in my drawer
Laughing so hard you’re rolling around on the floor
At all the bad haircuts and smoking cigarettes
The lustless romantic trying hard to impress
Well that’s just me before we met
Well that’s just me before we met
Putting down the photos you look up at me
Enjoying the thought of the person I used to be
The things I was proud of
The things I regret
Some things I remember
Some things I forget
Well that’s just me before we met
Well that’s just me before we met
Well I’ve always had a wild imagination
And a see through heart
Which I know can be a wild combination
Like a flame forms from a spark
But don’t be shy
Be brave little champion
It’s better to live than to hide”
“Just Me Before We Met” is one of those songs that just tackled me when it came up on shuffle one day. I had to stop on Astor Place, hit replay, and lean against the K-Mart while the feels washed over. It could speak to the Doctor’s relationship with any of his companions, but there’s something very Rose about it to me. I can picture them doing this, probably right after “School Reunion” – him showing her pictures of what he used to look like and the silly things he used to wear; and her wanting to know absolutely everything.
Rose is the only modern companion to have known more than one regeneration of the Doctor, so I think that she understands him in a way that Martha, Donna, and Amy don’t. (Every companion has a unique relationship with him, after all.) She’s had to come to terms with the fact that Nine is both always there and never coming back. I imagine that, once she understood the circumstances and came to trust Ten, he would regale her with stories about all of his past selves: mistakes, triumphs, and tragedies. What a relief for the Doctor that Rose accepts and loves this very alien part of him.